I once thought about bringing you home to meet my parents. But that idea seemed half-baked, frivolous, a conundrum when I could pick out the little things they wouldnt like about you. The pet names—whore; instead of babe—would not go unnoticed. How she smokes cigarettes. And he, smokes weed, has guns that have killed people […]
She sits alone in silenceAnd doesn’t feel the tearsFlooding forward from her soulShe hasn’t, now, in yearsThe emptiness within herSurrounds her every dayAnd echoes with her painful pastMemories just don’t fadeEveryone she’s loved, she’s lostAnd so she loves no moreHer darkness finally won the fightHer soul, it lost the warShe sits alone in silenceAnd never […]
“gray silky sheets,and walls thick with red,the color of the sun is twisted through you.the way the covers fall on top of your head,reminds me of a place under the bed.it’s cold and it’s cruel,it’s dark and it’s gloom,little monsters, little monsters-don’t be afraid today.the light may be twistedbut the clouds will sift away one […]
It hasn’t been that long. Yet it totally has. The timing since I last saw your face. It’s been years, yet I still hold out hope that I’ll see you again. And I don’t know who could be more wrong — myself for believing you to be there or you for thinking no one could […]
I stayed strong for you. I wasn’t in a place mentally, physically or emotionally ready to be strong. But I put all that aside because you needed me. And I wanted you to know even though your hardships are greater than mine; I would still show up, day in and day out for you. I […]
you asked me to express my feelings and thoughts and all that came to mind was the past. the past i struggled so hard to forget even though all the physical evidence is right there on my skin. how do i become intimate with someone when my mind is screaming “they can see the SCARS!!” […]
It’s 11pm and I’m thinking many thoughts. Mostly due to drinking, feeing overwhelmed, stressed, a little annoyed and depressed.
i will always remember and recover, not forgive and forget.
my walls aren’t what they used to be anymore. they have cracks and divots and crumbling foundations. i’m so fucking fragile that i can be fine for a second but one wrong word, one wrong picture, one wrong person, one wrong thought can bring everything crashing down around me. and i won’t be prepared for […]
never leave me alone in the dark and i’ll be there for you in your darkest moments. carry on the light throughout both our tunnels. return us home and wrapped in our blankets. never leave me alone and i promise you’ll never be alone either.
gillian renee 